A SHAMAN

"A SHAMAN ... KNOWS THERE IS A SEA OF CONSCIOUNESS THAT IS UNIVERSAL EVEN THOUGH WE EACH PERCEIVE IT IT FROM OUR OWN SHOES, AN AWARENESS AND A WORLD THAT WE ALL SHARE, THAT CAN BE EXPERIENCED BY EVERY LIVING BEING, YET IS SELDOM SEEN BY ANY."



(VILLOLDO AND JENDRESEN)



The four winds

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

SMOKING QUIT ME!

I had never seen it happen to anybody, I didn’t even know it COULD happen. I enjoyed smoking, although I knew it could do me some harm. Like all smokers in general I tried not to give it much thought. It was one of my pleasures and I tried to be happy as much as possible.
Suddenly, with no previous notice, I felt nauseated after a cigarette. A terrible sensation followed by cold sweat and cramps. Just terrible. The next day I waited for some hours to have a cigarette, afraid it might happen again. It did.
I thought it over and over, looking for an explanation. A week later I only knew I was afraid of smoking.
This is been nearly one year now, so I think its going to stay for good. I know Ill be much better off not smoking, but what about my breakfast followed by a cigarette? The nights at cafes lighting cigarettes and sipping beer? A drink is much more of a drink if you can smoke too. I miss the feeling of having to light a new cigarette in between a conversation ... I may sound crazy, but I miss my smoking ... What else will I have to lose?

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2 comments:

Joyce Hanson said...

Hello, hello. I really like your post about smoking, and I'm also glad you quit. I also wrote a post about my love of smoking and struggle to quit: http://mybadgirlblog.blogspot.com/search?q=chest+x-ray
And have you ever seen a ghost, Woman at the Well? Something about your writing makes me think you might have. Anyway, if you like, please read my latest post about how I saw my Aunt Gogo's ghost. XXXOOO Joyce

Kak Teh said...

Well done! It is never too late. and this will give you more time to write yr beautiful stories.