I had never seen it happen to anybody, I didn’t even know it COULD happen. I enjoyed smoking, although I knew it could do me some harm. Like all smokers in general I tried not to give it much thought. It was one of my pleasures and I tried to be happy as much as possible.
Suddenly, with no previous notice, I felt nauseated after a cigarette. A terrible sensation followed by cold sweat and cramps. Just terrible. The next day I waited for some hours to have a cigarette, afraid it might happen again. It did.
I thought it over and over, looking for an explanation. A week later I only knew I was afraid of smoking.
This is been nearly one year now, so I think its going to stay for good. I know Ill be much better off not smoking, but what about my breakfast followed by a cigarette? The nights at cafes lighting cigarettes and sipping beer? A drink is much more of a drink if you can smoke too. I miss the feeling of having to light a new cigarette in between a conversation ... I may sound crazy, but I miss my smoking ... What else will I have to lose?
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